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moving on moving on. [Jan. 10th, 2008|05:36 pm]
[emotions in motion | bye.]
[the soundtrack to my life |goodnight goodnight -- maroon 5]

letting go and moving on.

here we are.

goodbye. i think i will still move back here sometime, it seems hard to let go. loving you so much baby.
Linkthoughts spoken

i lovee my mommy. =] [Jan. 10th, 2008|01:24 am]
[emotions in motion | walao. tired...]
[the soundtrack to my life |centre of my life -- hillsong]

OK DISCLAIMER TO MY LAST POST. my dad DID NOT cut off my line. what he did was upgrade my mom's phone, and then wanted to upgrade her line, to 3G, but upgraded mine instead. which would explain why i couldn't use my phone because the card went kaput and my poor mommy was home stuck with the sim card, waiting for her own line to kaput when actually it's my line that went kaput. so well, i had a great time with my mom anyway. yeappss. hahaha I LOVE MY MOMMY! =]

`stepping out of my comfort zone, letting go of me, holding on to You.
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a unique woman [Jan. 9th, 2008|02:57 pm]
[emotions in motion | holding on to You]
[the soundtrack to my life |Centre of my life -- Hillsong]

i tell you, i really really don't like how work makes me so tired. i mean really tired. sunday night i slept at 3 woke up 7 on monday. bumped into my god-bro. he was late too. then monday slept around 2 woke up at 8 on tuesday. i should so kill myself.. then tuesday night went home straight, and knocked out around 8 till today morning 7. it's super draining. i mean i can sit at the laptop and stone and my head is suddenly very heavy.. oh my goodness. and my dad cut my HP line. i'm so angry.. ok anyway, that's not what i wanna talk about. OHHH. btw, i got leave for next thursday and friday. thursday for rest. i think i will die soon man. they always say you can rest on sat and sun what if you got work. sorry i cannot. this sat got usher. =] anywayyy...

i was reading a book called unique woman. if you think you've seen this set of words in my blog before it's yes because you have and i just never really started it. or i started just never continued. so i had to do something when i was having lunch, so i decided to bring this book along just to will away my time alone, and lunch is really the best time to spend time with God. well, at least for me to say. work well, the world in a whole is a really messy and horrible place. so i really had to spend some time alone with God.

Sorry i had to pause there, my manager was walking in and out. sianess. but work is really trying to kill me man. i really hate it la.. raah. not that i hate the work, but it's really draining. like my whole life is like sucked outta me. raah.. ok let's not go there. i'm back at where my laptop is so i'm happy.. because, my laptop has all my worship songs online. =] so i get to depend on God 360 degrees. hahah. =]

anyway back to topic about the book, i was at lunch la. then i was reading.. sieze the opportunity, there has to be a chapter on submission and the truth about forgiveness.. submission that really affected me, to the extent i stopped lunch.. there comes this super familiar verse in my life, the Ephesians verse again. but that aside. there was this phrase Forgiveness is the essence of mercy, mercy is the essence of grace, grace is the essence of love, and love is the essence of holiness.  i stopped. love. not anything else is the essence of holiness.  Forgiveness is never earned. it is a gift by grace from the love of God shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Spirit. then as i went on reading, i was so gonna cry can. i don't know why but God just suddenly touched me. it was like after what happened on monday, God really unlocked my heard. and the book was just asking, are you holding anything against someone? Do you need to forgive yourself? Others? God? then i stopped eating. coz i couldn't go on. then further down was a prayer.

Father I come to You now, in the name of Jesus. By faith, I ask You to forgive me and cleanse me of all my sins. You said unless I forgive, You would not forgive me. So right now, I ask You to forgive me and cleanse my heart and mind of all sin. By faith, I recieve the power of the Holy Spirit into my life. By the ability of Your Spirit and the authority of Your word, I forgive that person who has sinned against me. I release his sin out of my life. Thank You , Lord. for what You are doing to make me free from my own sin and the sins of others.

God really ministered to me can. it was like just suddenly. i felt as if God was just holding me close. just hugging me so tight. i almost cried. well, at least i didn't feel THAT bad after lunch. and one more hour till i'm off work. God's so here. i didn't feel that bad during work knowing that He's with me.



`I love because You first loved me. For You are always here with me. letting go of me, holding on to You. I'll make You the centre of my life.
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I have nothing left to offer [Jan. 8th, 2008|12:19 pm]
[emotions in motion | blank.]
[the soundtrack to my life |thank you -- CCC youth]

i have nothing left to offer you Lord, other than myself as an offering, so take me and use me Lord.

`all i wanna do is worship You.
Linkthoughts spoken

how many times i broke Your heart, yet You still came to my rescue. [Jan. 8th, 2008|12:24 am]
[emotions in motion | ...???]
[the soundtrack to my life |came to my rescue -- hillsong]

eric, miaow guan, kenneth and myself went to chomp chomp today. haha imainge 4 broke people going for dinner. all together. hahaha. but that was not the highlight of the evening actually. after that, we went down to eric's place, supposedly to slack, but also to talk lor. so eric was playing his electric guitar. playing the hallelujah part of thank you. and then as we were just talking. about what was happening, and eric was sharing about this buddy of his that he fell out with due to some problems, and i really had to look away. when you shared, when God asked you to let go, it was what God was asking me at that same point. the whole pressence of God was really strong, and all of us had our own individual revelations. and to me, eric's always been my closest friend. i Thank God for Eric.. but really. i think God really ministered to us all tonight.

a pictorial revelation i had was about eric's desk. eric's desk is super clustered. and he had this light on his desk surrounded by all the mess, and i realy felt a revelation before it came.. and what God was trying to say to me was, would you be the light when you have seen that the world is such a mess and such a clutter. then he didnt stop there, he went on to say, if you turn off the light, you wont be able to see the clutter at all. so to an extent i felt God like saying, would you keep shining your light, for people to see that you have God's light in you and that the world itself is such a huge mess? and it really hit hard back home. especially after asking if i could let go. im trying. i really am. 

http://bless2shine.imeem.com/playlist/eL78LPP3/hillsongs_music_playlist/
the songs of hillsong.


`circumstances fade away with You, my God.
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my Saviour King [Jan. 3rd, 2008|09:09 am]
[emotions in motion | :( a little not]
[the soundtrack to my life |hosanna -- hillsong united]

I foresee a long and tedious year ahead.. but i'm game. just as long as certain people dont cross me again. i dont think i'm depressed anymore, but i just feel bullied all the time.. it's like i always have to give in, and i have to in times be people's mediator, be their hearing aid, be their listening ear [mind you a hearing aid is different from a listening ear.] it's times like this when you really just need someone, or actually SOMETHING to talk to before you go mad. like now. oh my goodness. talking to myself can turn me insane you know. pastor says it's ok to talk to yourself, as long as you don't talk to yourself back. which unfortunately seems to be what i do. siann. I mean, life's getting better and everything, life's ok i guess, it just happens so when you're getting your life back together, someone walks in, brings a hope up and then drops everything for their clean record and leaves you to clean up the mess you BOTH made, and leaves you walking away alone. and it always happens that's the scariest part of it. i would love to call you a bitch, seeing you're one in the understanding and in the mind. well, wait then, you are. hahaha. i love talking to imai. i dont understand why the leaders dont like her. i simply LOVE her!!!!! HAHAHA she makes me laugh my butt off. and she so totally kicks butt, for me. hahahaha. thanks to her! =] someone's a bitch a coupla times over. not just once, so well, it ain't me then. hahahahaha. true, her hokien and english vulgarities sprout smoother than poetry. hahaha. but i'm seriously sick of being not taken for granted, but taken as a back up. not about being in the background. if i weren't, then i wouldn't be in cch and usher. Matthaeus, i will not be put into either dance or choir. BLEAH! i dont care if you head what. i will not take stage till i'm ready. honestly, i'm not, or actually i wont. i dont wanna have to be bogged down, not by commitment, but by emotions. so many lives interwined, but never understood. No one would ever ask me how i was this or how i was that, many times, it'd just be, hey can i this this this and that that that. why do i always have to give in? sacrifice isn't the same as giving in.


let now weak say i have strength
by the spirit of power that raised Christ from the dead
let now the poor stand and confess
that my portion is Him and I'm more than blessed

`stop being a bitch, learn to be a man for once will you. my Saviour King.
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happy new year. [Jan. 1st, 2008|11:38 pm]
[emotions in motion | zzz tired....]
[the soundtrack to my life |perfect year -- dina caroll]

Ring out the old, bring in the new
A midnight wish to share with you
Your lips are warm, my head is light
Were we in love before tonight?

I don't need a crowded ballroom everything I need is here
If your with me next year will be
The perfect year

No need to hear the music play,
You eyes say all there is to say
The stars can fade and they can shine
'Long as your face is next to mine

I don't need a crowded ball room everything I need is here
If your with me next year will be
The perfect year

We don't need a crowded ballroom everything we need is here
If your with me next year will be
The perfect year

It's New Year's Eve and hopes are high
Dance one year in, kiss one goodbye
Another chance, another start
So many dreams to tease the heart

We don't need a crowded ballroom everything we need is here
And face to face we will embrace
The perfect year
Oh, we don't need a crowded ballroom everything we need is here
And face to face we shall embrace
The perfect year
Ahh, the perfect year


well, it wasnt the most perfect year that went by, with all it's ups and downs, severe ups, and horrible downs, but well, '07 is over, and it's a new beginning. 

Verse 1
I see the king of glory
Coming down the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes, the whole earth shakes
I see his love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing, the people sing

Chorus
Hosanna, hosanna
Hosanna in the highest

Verse 2
I see a generation
Rising up to take the place
With selfless faith, with selfless faith
I see a new revival
Staring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees, we're on our knees

Bridge
Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart for what is yours
Everything I am for your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity

Hosanna

no i didnt cry when i heard this song, but it tugged, not one, but two three four strings in my heart. i rmb in june, when pastor joakim was here, and he preached about spiritual parents, and about my vision for CCH. and it was this same song. and as the church sang, it was like a reminder, and also a question, dont you wanna do more, or do you think you're doing enough? so i did tell mae ann i wanna do more in CCH. it's gonna be so amazing! =] glory to God. not only that. just before the clock struck midnight, ok i'm being dramatic, there's no grandfather clock in church, but yes, then pastors was saying, pray for the person beside you, so i wasnt sure whether the person beside me was a R, I or N, so i ok never mind, just pray. so to me, it was a very simple prayer la. like for God to be when her through not just the new year but also the whole year through, and to break all her barriers and such, so i lay one hand on her and started praying, so to me right, it was simple nothing much one. and then when i opened my eyes i saw her tearing. i was so shocked. i never pray until someone cry before. oh my goodness. then i told fabian about it. hahaha. long story. but he said he's very proud of me, well, CCH's very proud of him too! he won the EVANGELIST OF THE YEAR award. well done!!! =] then also, God again raised idea about the thrid ministry i wanted to join. and i was hesitant la. not that i didnt want the ministry. i wanted to join the ministry. but i was hesitant in the sense in doubt whether i would be allowed in. longer story still. then the whole night was ok lor. tired... just really tired. but couldnt sleep properly because i was wearing a dress. i have no idea how gonghua and sinfei can still be so energetic at 6 in the morning. walao... then me and qi wei went down for breakfast with randyne, leona, sunny, weize. and poor jing heng was sleeping in church. but they were fun lor. hahhah had a really great time getting to know them better. hahah then after that. stayed till 9++ waiting for someonee to be able to accompany them home, becuase i scared they sleep on the train. walao... they are like DIFFICULT to wake. oh my goodness. that one, you can ask qi wei to verify. hahaha but it was a good day. well, good start at least. hahaha i like my dress. =]  ian super funny, tell me, waah, new year, "chu zhao chu dao wan." hahahaha. to a extent true la. hahaha. a girl's allowed to dress up a coupla times a year and new year's one of them. hahaha.. ok. tired. now i wanna go sleep le.. tired. i not going to workk. yeahh. =] super tired sia. nights everyone. =]

hahhaa i just rmbed, last year's blog post on new year had so many photos. hahhaha. well new times. nights everyone. =]




`will you be willing to do more? when I say you will be there, you will be.
Linkthoughts spoken

addicted to You and then ALDO shoes. [Dec. 31st, 2007|12:05 am]
[emotions in motion | You and aldo addict..]
[the soundtrack to my life |what hurts the most -- rascal flatts]

i am hereby addicted to ALDO!!! oh my goodness. shoes, accesories.. everything. AND ALDO IS NOT HAVIN DISCOUNT. ARGH... i'm just waiting for those shoes to either drop to 50% or 70% discount. hahahaa. it's super gorgeous!!! and i spent like 100+++ when i went out with xueli today.. i should so kill myself. i bought a dress, that guy was so nice, he gave me 10% discount. must be my very nice smile. hahaha. i really dunnoe why he gave it to us. i dunnoe if he could have authorised the discount, but i wonder why he actually did? hahaha. yeapp. must be my very very nice smile. =] haha then i went to levis to buy a shirt. 20% off. hahaha. so ended up paying only 26! =] hahah then went to ebase and bought this cute tube halter. then went to far east, bought a brown tube to match with my dress and something else. hahahaha. then went to gataomo to cut hair. hahah wash and cut by jacky. haah then we bumped into gina bk stella elgin ernie sahai hong and chew. hahhahaa chew dye hair.. then i just cut. hahaa. thin actually. =] so it'll go with my earrings and hair. =] hahah well, a girl has a right to dress up a few times a year right. hahaha. i look quite nice. =] self praise is therapeutic. ahaaa so shuddup. haha. it's like everything is so miraculous his few days can. hahah

take for example ytd when i was on usher. i asked this integration back, without expecting him to turn up. when i was downstairs doing usher, then i saw him in the distance. OMG! but i must say there was a lack of warmth and welcome.. but he came! and i thank God for bringing him back. =] hahahaha i just hope you'd keep coming back, even if im not on usher on the white gate dear.. you tomato boy.. haha



i realise i look super skinny. haahaha should i still complain im fat? hahahhaah :P ahaa i was looking at all the sales going by, then i made this comment, darn i need a rich boyfriend. hahha :P
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i feel gorgeous.. wait.. i am. [Dec. 30th, 2007|12:39 am]
[emotions in motion | cheery but super tired....]
[the soundtrack to my life |i will magnify you -- CCC Oxford falls]

hahaha well, i did white gate, again. yes again, though i did wanna do audi, but if they needed people at white gate, then i'd reather do it there than have jian ming pick and choose. hahaah. anyway, i feel super gorgeous.. hahah. coz coz coz.. i was wearingmy auntie's shirt today. hahah quite nice. together with jeans i hardly wear jeans. hahaha. so so so so.. hahaha then i was there, and doing usher la. hahah rainng. siann. aahhahaha... so i was wearing quite nice, at least i thought i was..wearing make up somemore leh. hahaha. yeahh. not only did i feel gorgeous, i was really gorgeous. hahahaa. the best thing was when one of my leaders walked in through the white gate and said, hey you're dressed up today arh. hahha. i felt damn gorgeous can. =] i shall show off on monday! =] amazing. i love my God. =] service was like AMAZING!!!!! almost 4 hrs. hahahaha. but cool man.. =] =]
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trust Me. [Dec. 26th, 2007|11:34 pm]
[emotions in motion | amazed!]
[the soundtrack to my life |hallelujah -- hillsong united]

the endless possibilities about the glory of God. OMG! you know i havent posted a really spiritual post for a long time, all my posts have been stupid mundane and upsetting, but here's something for me to listen to for good. we, meaning the CCH projection team had a prayer meeting tonight. 10.45. so we were just praying for everything la.. pastors and rinnah, sister mae ann, projection team and cch. so i was suppose to be praying for the cch, but coz last week i was praying for breakthrough in CCH and cch really broke through, i was like ok thank God and pray for each projectionist, nothing much i can do right? next thing i knew, i was praying like never before. i mean never before. it wasnt me praying. i prayed for cch breakthrough, the individual projectionist. all the small things and i couldnt even imagine that God would use me in this way. it was really as if i'd been next to God. like for real. after a prayed, i just sat down and cried.. i was so shocked.. it definately all started last wednesday when we were praying as well, and it was then that i was praying for the breakthrough and i really broke through myself..and all through the week God was like, see I told you there was no need to doubt. today was a really clear sign la. especially during work. i had a hard time the first half of the day, coz i was new and no one was really friendly, so i had pretty tough a time, only when i went for lunch. i went alone. imagine. ahhaah. so yeah. i went and so i said grace right, thank God for the meal and asked Him to be with me throughout this work. and imagine, after that, i had NO PROBLEMS finding files and getting them back where they were suppose to go, i had no problems sorting out the transfer present and past. i was amazed. and i was so raarhing to leave, then i told God, God please guide these hands, and within 5 minutes. i swear, i got all the files back to where they were suppose to be, i got them all right, cleared up and voila! i was outta there. set and done. OMG i still cannot believe it was me praying!!! agh!!!! i remember what was the last sentence of my testimony when i shared during easter.


`a mind blowing, earth shaking, and above all, loving God. Hallelujah.
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siannnss [Dec. 26th, 2007|02:04 pm]
[emotions in motion | siann sleepy..]
[the soundtrack to my life |i can only imagine -- mercy me]

i so do not like to work. "( it's not that it's tough, it's just tediously boring! goodness! gosh, and people here are colder than the polar bears in the north or the south. walao. other than the one who's in charge of me, every other idiot looks at me as if im not capable liddat. so what if im small in size. whatever la. i cant wait to knock off man. even today morning when i was waking up to go to work. walao. usually on the first day of anything i will rah rah and do it one. today i didnt even wanna get outta bed! :( go away! it's the day after christmas! i should be slacking away finishing my book! raah.. anyway i did finish my book to the second book. it's a trilogy. i finished northern lights, the subtle knife and started on the amber spyglass. super cool. but yes, anti christ. it says that God, or hence and so the authority was or wait, is and angel above all the rest. he was too created by dust, as a first and best and sought to be worshipped because he thought he was the best and when he had someone second best to him, he banished her out of his kingdom. wth.. God and angel? never. God is God. angel's arent or else they wouldn't be called angels. everyone one of them would be called God. what nonsense. ok back to work. sian sia. tiring. haiz. sleepy. i wish i had someone to keep me awake. :(


`love God love people love life
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have we forgotten [Dec. 25th, 2007|09:39 pm]
[emotions in motion | happy]
[the soundtrack to my life |i can only imagine [dick and rick hoyt] -- mercy me]

it seems that we're more excited about the coming of christmas, but never about christmas itself. what is christmas? it's not about the gifts you recieve, not the gifts you can give, especially to those around you, not even to those who you dont know. christmas, is about the gift we bring to the King, who's birthday is today. have we forgotten those humble beginnings he came with, and the load he died with? this whole thought really came to me wheni was watching tv. is christmas just about sitting or lying at home watching tv? is it about the amount of presents you recieve? no i dont think so. it wasnt enough for me. but then i was watching grinch when my god parents came over, and this is what he said.
'maybe christmas doesnt come from a store.
maybe christmas means a little bit more'

true isnt it. that christmas should not just come from a store. not even to each other. does it really matter how big or expensive a gift you can give? but isnt it more of the gift we can give, to Him who's birthday is today.

another thing that sparked this of was my reading northen lights. northen lights, on which golden compass is made, is anti christ, not golden compass. apparently nicole kidman had never read the book before she made the show eh. it blasphemes and disproves the bible. but reading it really not challenges your faith, but you will really go all the way into the bible and start disproving the book itself. the book's fun and exciting, but really, it's challending. it's good. but it also shows where we've gone wrong, and in here, our worship to our King.


`addicted to You
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i cannot imagine. [Dec. 25th, 2007|01:21 am]
[emotions in motion | exhilarated!]
[the soundtrack to my life |i can only imagine [dick and rick hoyt] -- mercy me]

when the song says, i can only imagine, i can only say i cannot even imagine. my mommy actually told me i'd probably not be getting a christmas present this year, i was like, well, not much different anymore right. until. well, my christmas presents this year was more practical than fancy. haha i got 2 wallets. *rolls eyes* my smallest uncle probably didnt know what to get me anymore. hahaha. my big uncle got me the northen light collection, more sounding as the golden compass trilogy. well, the book reads real well. then my second uncle, more like his wife though, but yeah bought me this hello kitty wallet. oooook. hahaha. so my grandma and my youngest aunt bought me an ear piece! =] muahahah. it's goot to talk and type online at the same time without having to hold my phone. hahhaa and why do i say i cannot even imagine? because... my mummy asked me to go upstairs with her i thought to help her with my mother. then she reaches into her cupboard and fishes something out while saying, "this is your christmas gift." it was a small gift box outside written, swarovski. OMG! i opened it to find a pair of Swarovski crystal earrings.


omg, i totally cannot imagine!!!!! God. I CANNOT IMAGINE. thank you. it's now God saying, do you trust Me now? will i be able to listen to Him and really trust Him in every single thing? wow. how can i not now? gosh.. i will wear them on the new year's eve service. literally jewelery flaunting. God's blessing me in all my ways. right now.

i love my God because he is unimaginable in all His ways.
Linkthoughts spoken

only for You and Your glory! [Dec. 24th, 2007|01:09 am]
[emotions in motion | exhilarating]
[the soundtrack to my life |i can only imagine [dick and rick hoyt] -- mercy me]

CCH BROKE THROUGH 100 KIDS!!!!!!!!!!

hallelujah!!!!!!!!!!!! i was walking to take my bus back from AMK hub when i bumped into YEESIONG!!! hahaaha. and we were talking about prayer and about CCH. it started about the prayer meeting me, bro fabian and bro cheeyong had a few days back on Wednesday. wondering why i only put in three names? because we were the only ones praying. literally. so our prayer list consisted of
1. praying for Pastor How, Pastor Lia and Rinnah's health
2. praying for Sister Mae Ann's health, and for the armour of God to be upon her and CCH.
3. praying for each projectionist to increase in capacity and specific areas of their lives to be lead by the Holy Spirit
4. praying for breakthrough in CCH
5. praying for armour of God upon CCH, HOGC and the projectionists of CCH.

i was praying for the fourth point. the bible says, when two or three gather in My name. well, there were three of us, PLUS THREE!! THE FATHER SON AND THE HOLY SPIRIT! God was so there, so listening to everything we were praying. i felt that it had really brought us all to a whole new level, not just in prayer life, but to us, it really felt as if we'd broken through what was really holding us back. and gosh! CCH's attendance was 103 WE'D NEVER BROKEN THROUGH 100 BEFORE!!! we almost did, with a pre-service attendance of 101, but a service attendance of 91. but still we never despaired, we never stopped fighting, we never stopped praying. and after the primary six pupils were shifted to zone F, attendance dropped to a rough 60. but by His miracles, we've broken through!!! BY HIS GRACE AND MERCY!

to me, it was God really saying, I have heard your cry. I've heard your prayer and now, I'll show you what I truly am capable off. every time i doubt God, God has amazing ways to tell me, TRUST ME! and seek Me. Matthew 6:33 but seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things shall be added to you. isn't it like AMAZING!?!?!?!?! I was doing usher today. and i was having emotional fluctuations. super siann. dont ask me why.. but then it was like i was greeting, and when you do for such a big event, you'd really get to see, not know alot of people, and what they really are. and it was a little erky. but before i went up, there was this guy. Jackson's friend. so here's the convo

'hi welcome to Heart of God Church!'
'hi, thanks. =]'
'welcome. =]'
'sorry, ma fan le ni le.'

it was like the guy didn't wanna trouble us la. but to me, it was really these kinda people that really made my day. those that smile, you don't have to say fantastic poetry.  no one does. *rolls eyes* hahaa but that small smile that some people i didnt even know gave, it was really enough to make my day. it was simply amazing. =]

and it's true when they say you work best under pressure.  after de-brief today,  [shanny bought us chocolates!  thank you shanny! i had the privilege of working with shanny for  last christmas as well. =] hahaha] so after de-brief, we had to go shift chairs and count impression slips. cue posts and chains. haaa. so i was actually rushing off to go to marina with the church de. but in the end, i was shifting chairs with the ushers. imagin me.. aaron lee wanted me to shift the whole stack of red chairs with the trolley. and i'm like. erhhh. ahhaha. then aaron lee say, ok never mind, find 3 peoblems for me in the whole audi. then i uhoh.. so, sian didn't find 3 problems, coz curtains so not counted. hahhaa. but i was really stress coz andrew ong and xueli were waiting for me. so i had to rush as well. sians right. ahhha. then after that did stock check. fun. but really busy. but it was then when i worked best. i had to focus not on myself for once. it felt good. =] =] =] =] =] i know my forte.. =] i enjoy it..

LOVING HIM IS EXHILARATING! who says God's so serious? you know what? i enjoy dancing during worship songs.. and now i can finally do it with this song that says.

I can only imagine
What it will be like
When I walk
By your side

I can only imagine
What my eyes will see
When your face
Is before me
I can only imagine

[Chorus:]
Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel
Will I dance for you Jesus or in awe of you be still
Will I stand in your presence or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine

I can only imagine
When that day comes
And I find myself
Standing in the Son

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever
Forever worship You
I can only imagine

 [Chorus]

I can only imagine [x2]

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever, forever worship you


i can worship Him and dance at the same time. Psalm 150 :3-5

3 Praise Him with the sound of the trumpet;
         Praise Him with the lute and harp!
 4 Praise Him with the timbrel and dance;
         Praise Him with stringed instruments and flutes!
 5 Praise Him with loud cymbals;
         Praise Him with clashing cymbals!

praising him is LOUD! it's HIGH! =] and like i said, praising Him is extremely EXHILARATING and a never ending circle of EXCITEMENT! i can only imagine.


when you build God's kingdom, God will build yours.
He's building mine, will you let Him build yours?
Linkthoughts spoken

i can only imagine - all the things You are for me [Dec. 23rd, 2007|12:39 am]
[emotions in motion | appreciative of You tonight]
[the soundtrack to my life |i can only imagine [dick and rick hoyt] -- mercy me]



this is a super nice song. i was crying through the video when i heard this song can. i can only imagine

I can only imagine what it will be like, when I walk by Your side...
I can only imagine, what my eyes will see, when Your Face is before me!
I can only imagine. I can only imagine.

Surrounded by Your Glory, what will my heart feel?
Will I dance for you, Jesus? Or in awe of You, be still?
Will I stand in Your presence, or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing 'Hallelujah!'? Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine! I can only imagine!

I can only imagine, when that day comes, when I find myself standing in the Son!
I can only imagine, when all I will do, is forever, forever worship You!
I can only imagine! I can only imagine!

Surrounded by Your Glory, what will my heart feel?

Will I dance for you, Jesus? Or in awe of You, be still?
Will I stand in Your presence, or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing 'Hallelujah!'? Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine! Yeah! I can only imagine!

Surrounded by Your Glory, what will my heart feel?

Will I dance for you, Jesus? Or in awe of You, be still?
Will I stand in Your presence, or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing 'Hallelujah!'? Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine! Yeah! I can only imagine!

I can only imagine! Yeah! I can only imagine!! Only imagine!!!
I can only imagine.

I can only imagine, when all I do is forever, forever worship You!
I can only imagine


this is the whole video that was played in church today.
Linkthoughts spoken

my best christmas present selection for now [Dec. 17th, 2007|07:12 pm]
[emotions in motion | la lala lala lala.]
[the soundtrack to my life |miracles happen -- Princess Diaries]

no.1


i think the silver bible is nicer. it's $17.90
no.2


the NKJV live and style bible $17.90

no.3

Every day with Jesus Bible. =] $39.90

no.4

levis shirt. $39.50

no.5

The golden compass trilogy $39.50

No.1-5 can all be found at compass point, all NKJV bibles only.. =]

1-5 are below $40
the want i want too is $60+
CS LEWIS scretape letters and mere Christianity collection.

sian right. maybe i wanna go and find some other things as well, but i really want a new bible. i think the silver one's my best. choice. guess where i found it? popular.. hahaha
Linkthoughts spoken

dont just make money, create memories. [Dec. 16th, 2007|03:30 am]
[the soundtrack to my life |how great is our God -- CCC]

you know, i've really grown in CCH i think. like, i use to just really focus on projection while watchin everyone else have fun with the kids, or the acting yolanda's more than capable of coming up with, before... hahaha. i got to do an acting today. hahaha. sper nonsense sia.. and then.. after that, we had a sign up. and i helped out la. usually i dont, and it was a really good time to get to know a few more kids.. then after that was dinner. and some of them just wanted to eat  food court, so i went down with mavis and jermaine to buy the food they wanted. then it was just soending time with them, talking to them, getting to know them more la. coz usually i never have the cnahce to do that. coz i usually have to do the lear up and everything as such, but today no need to clear so much ccoz of the G zone thing. hahahah :P but it was still fun though. =] and i really wanna go further lor like projection today had problems. the converter had some problems, so i had to go down to live feed and borrow cable, then this and that, then borrow laptop from Bro Jon as back up. and it was really a spiritually challenging and technical problem that i realy leart to work with lor. so yeah.. i love cch. but next week i wont be on.. i'll be doing usher!!! yeah!!! for 23, i really wanna do white gate. i was gonna write glass door coz that was at FTMS. hahaha. but i wanna do white gate for 23. and for 29, i really wanna work with Jian Ming. it's super amazing to work with JianMing. People never seem to want to run under JM. but i think it's super amazing. coz.. haaha. it's fun and challenging. EXCITING! hahhaha. it's really interesting lor. hahah please please please jian ming. i wanna do audi kkk? =] =] =]

i just wanna grow grow grow tall in you. hahaha. standing taller than everyone else in Your pressence. I love You Lord. =] Hallelujah.
Linkthoughts spoken

VBS , over... [Dec. 14th, 2007|04:22 pm]
[emotions in motion | super tired but all for good.]

yesterday was a long day, well, everyday this week has been a long day. vbs.. hahaha. super tiring. we ushered 13hrs ytd hahaha. yes. 9am to 10 pm. hahahaha. pro right. hahaha. anyway. i had a good sleep so cant complain. hahaha. but really wish i could rest a little while more. haiz.. later gotta go out with my mom. :( not that i dont like spending time with my mom, just tiring i guess.

ministry ytd was really nice. =] really went through to a new level man. =] =] =] except for someone who was really irritating me. just coz you're younger doesnt mean i'll give in to you. you learn to respect people man.. =] =] =] JH. dont stress. we still love you k. =] but keegan was good too. =] was really great working with them la. hahaha. and i sat at front row. stress can. cannot sleep. :P i was tired! :( hahaha. but the atmosphere feels different in front actually. like you dont have the urge to fall asleep. i like the feeling in front. =] hahahahaha.
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我送你离开千厘之外 [Dec. 11th, 2007|01:16 am]

wo yan ru xuan ai // feng ling ru cang hai // wo deng yan gui lai
shi jian bei an pai // uan yi chang yi wai // ni qiao ran zou kai
gu shi zai cheng wai // nong wu san bu kai // kan bu qing dui bai
ni ting bu chu lai // feng sheng bu chun zai // shi wo zai gan kai

#mong xing lai // shi shui zai chuang tai // ba jie ju da kai
na bao ru chan yi de wei lai // jing bu qi shui lai cai#

*wo song ni li kai // qian li zhi wai // ni wu sheng hei bai
chen mo nian dai // huo xu bu gai // tai yao yuan de xiang ai
wo song ni li kai // tian ya zhi wai // ni shi fou hai zai
qin sheng he lai // sheng si nan cai // yong yi sheng // qu deng dai*

wen lei sheng ru lin // xun li hua bai // zhi de yi hang // qing tai
tian zai shan zhi wai // yu luo hua tai // wo liang bin ban bai
wen lei sheng ru lin // xun li hua bai // zhi de yi hang // qing tai
tian zai shan zhi wai // yu luo hua tai // wo deng ni lai

yi sheng liu li bai // tou ming zhe chen ai // ni wu xia de ai
ni cong yu zhong lai // shi hua le bei ai // wo lin shi xian zai
fu rong shui mian cai // chuan hang ying you zai // ni que bu hui lai
bei sui yue fu gai // ni shuo de hua kai // guo qu cheng kong bai

Repeat #**

Linkthoughts spoken

she smiles and walks away wearing the jacket that covers the knife. [Dec. 10th, 2007|11:40 pm]
[emotions in motion | forget it.]
[the soundtrack to my life |qian li zhi wai -- jay chou]

she just stood there, looking at him, while he smiled, and yet she smiled in her heart, knowing that there was only one thing she wanted to whisper, only one thing she wanted to say, yet still looking on from a distance she utter a prayer for Him to keep him safe. and hurt as she was, she contended to walk away.

things hurt, and yet, so often i refuse to say it to anyone to prevent anyone else from getting hurt, and now i realise, i cant go on anymore. i cant even talk to myself. i wouldnt even tell myself what's hurting me. all i can do is sigh, and go on with life with this knife stuck inside. i sigh to myself and say forgetit, i'll walk away, and with each step, the knife stabs deeper and deeper. i keep wanting to tell someone.. yet everytime i look at someone else, i just find myself unable to attach myself to that person, for the fear that he'd walk away. everytime someone comes intomy life, they bring with it, joy faith and excitement, and soon fizzles out. leaving disappointment. is it a guy trade mark?

*you made me a promise, you promised me you'd never walk out of my life. and now? just because of someone, you're going to leave everything here behind. what about me? i was there in the middle of your conflicts. i was there walking BOTH of you through it. and what did you ask? what do i mean to him? who cares? how about me? i do. and yet. dont you realise both of you have put me in the same situation as you two, but i have a double portion, being in the centre?

who cares about you? ME. if you leave, it only shows what you meant by you promise to never walk out on my life.
Linkthoughts spoken

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